Sometimes I can't handle life when it has to deal with my family.  I can't help but always wander why the decissions my parents make for my so called middle person....   I can't really call him my brother, and I'm not about to call someone a brother who ain't really one to begin with.  Well...  I'm just gonna use his name, Larry.

   Larry has always gotten everything so easy...  Trust me I ain't crying over him, or jealous in any way, he just really pisses me off.  I wish I had a sibling whom I could be close to, beside my 5 year old brother.  Larry gets anything and everything.

   Larry is turning 20 this September.  He had I don't know how many jobs, and he can't keep one.  He's always getting fired.  He's always treating me like shit.  He moved out, my parents pay his way through everything.  He's just using my parents, my dad sees it, but my mom's ignorance is blinding her, because it's her child.  I could honestly see this... Him being put in jail, and my mom trying to save him.  I personally think he's a druggie, and the friends he has, ain't much better. 

   His on and off girlfriend, Sara, I like her.  She must love this kid some way or another.  They break up and date, break up and date...  He is a lier and puts her down.  She hates his friends, but she isn't innocent, she's got spots, but she admits to it.  Larry don't.  I just wish life was hard for him, like it is for us and money.  It's not like I can tell mom that someone slashed our tires and she would bend over backwards to get us new ones. 

   Larry is the type of person you just hope someone beats the hell out of him, and maybe then he will have a bit of since.  This fucktard decides to work on our car with a pot head.  Well they leave a part broken off inside, and ain't been back since to fix the damn thing.  If we was still waiting on him, it would be going on 3 weeks.

   I really, honestly hate to say this... But I wholeheartedly hate my brother... I know it is an awful thing to say, but I do....  I've never been treated like his sister, but just the blob who he deals with if mom bitches at him....