Hi My Faithful Blog Readers.   How is everything going with each of you?  Good I hope.  Now down to business...

I really am not going to do blogdrive anymore.  Don't get me wrong, they haven't been a bad "free" service.  I just find myself on myspace more.  Now here is my profile link to my myspace page.  http://myspace.com/aslifepassesby .   Now FYI, You will not be able to view the entire page, until you create a myspace page, and add me as a friend.  I don't want some people in my town to have access to it.  I have some people out there that hate me, and they don't need to be knowing my business, you know?  I don't wanna lose touch with anyone, so please do as I've said...

I guess this is goodbye to blogdrive.  I've had fun with my entrys, and hearing comments from people.  I won't delete my blog, so if you must, you can still contact me on here.

Well it's been fun...   Everyone, Please take care, and be safe...  

Goodbye....

Melisa

Well I am back, with another blog.  I know, don't get too excitied and wet yourself!   I am just kidding.  I have better hope that all of you guy have great bladder control.   

As you can tell, I am in a decent mood.  I have been the past few days.  I don't really have much, going on and on, in my mind to drive me crazy.  And people say blonde's don't have any brains, I mean, if I didn't, What is driving me crazy then?  So Ha Ha, I got brains...

Anywho, back to how I am.  I don't know if it is just the "monthly" thing, me being a female, or my parents fault, but I can't explain why it is that I am like I am, sometimes.  I don't try to drive myself crazy, along with people who's close to me.  Talking, Blogging, and Journal, it helps some, but not completely.  I feel like these emotions control me sometimes.  I'm not crazy, I can tell you that much. 

I don't want anyone to pitty me.  I'm not crazy.  If I am crazy, I blame my grandpa's.  Not saying they was bad people or anything.  I mean, we do get our "ways of acting" from someone, don't we?  Rather it be our parents or further down the line.

Jason says this saying, often, and it's true...  "Friends are the worlds glue".  I try so hard, to look for the best in everything.  But every so often, something goes crazy inside of me. 

I have a problem with me.  Jason is a great guy...  I could not find better for myself.  He is my one and only.  With him being a great person, and someone people wants to get to know, it comes with anyone and everyone.  I love Jason, and He loves me, no question about it.  I know we have a future together.  I know we don't have the thought of breaking up in either of our minds.  I just take times where I don't know how to react and think.  I know, I've bored you guys, but you guys rawk, and like to hear me.  LOL

All in all, right now.  I couldn't be in a better mood.  I mean I could be with Jason right now, if he was off and everything, but besides that.  I'm good.

Hey why don't you guys do this... Tell me how you control your feelings and actions... And stop yourself worrying, thinking and fearing... Maybe you can help me... LOL

Well I'm gonna go....

Take Care Everyone!
~*~ M ~*~

It's been a little time now from my last post.  Christmas was great!  I got alot of things.  I really don't think there was anything I got that I did not like.  I got a good bit of clothes, which I can always use.  I mean I can't go around naked.

After Christmas, the New Year, snuck up quick!  It came and went just as fast.  Before too long, Feburary is going to be here!  Time just flies by, don't it?  I did however, manage, to get my first ever "Ball Dropping" kiss.  Trust me, it was very enjoyable!  Thanks Jason...  I really loved it.

My Dad's Birthday was on the 3rd.  If ONLY you seen my attempt at baking the cake.  I bought a strawberry cake with strawberry whiped icing, and some edible letters.  So, I start to mix things together.  I did good at that.  So, I pre-heated the oven.  FYI: The knobs on the stove, all the numbers are rubbed off.  So, I spray the pan with some of the non-stick stuff.  So I stick it in.  So, I go about 10 minutes, and check it.  It's already brown on top.  So, yes, I had the temperature up too high, and didn't know it.  So, I leave it in longer, but I turned it down some.  So, It looked as if it was done, my golly the sides was turning brown.  So, I take it out, and let it cool.   So I then put a plate on the bottem, flip and it sticks in it.  So I turn it over and the top pops and you can see the goo inside, not done.  So, Yeah, I put it back in... I mean this was going to be on the bottem!  So I let it finish cooking.  I then am able to shake it out of the cooking pan.  But a part of the cake decides to stick.  So, I'm left with putting the cake puzzle pieces back in place.  So, I finish it, with the icing and letters.  Dad giggled at my "try", and I was like, I'll buy you a icecream cake from DQ if you want.  He's like no, I want that one.  So I got a hug, and said, well it's the thought. 

So, to put the cake "try" aside...   Tomorrow the 11th, is going to mark 15 months for Jason and I.   I can't believe how long it has been for us.  With my first relationship, with a great guy, it amazes me.  I never seen myself being in love, and being happy, but I am.  I feel kinda bad sometimes, for Jason, because of how I act with him.  He accepts me, for me, and everything I have inside of me.  I know he must feel bothered sometimes, by my actions and words.  Yes, The way I act or say things, puts us at conflict sometimes. 

Neither one of us are bad people.  We are far from it.  But we are human.  We have feelings and emotions.  We are not robots.  We aren't programmed to be happy 24/7.  We are blessed with feelings.  Sometimes, they overcome us, and it makes us act in ways we regret at times.  I am not a bad person.  I do have feelings.  When I'm mad, I'm gonna act like it.  When I'm upset, Yeah, You are gonna see it.  But if I showed no emotion, I would be "right".  I have mood swings, and I hate it. 

I couldn't be more blessed, to have such a great guy, with such a BIG heart.  I mean, he deals with me, better than I thought anyone could.  He listens, comforts, protects, loves, he does absolutly everything I ever wanted in a guy.  I can't thank God enough for sending me him.  I can act like a bitch at times, but I truly don't mean it.  It just comes out. 

Well I'm off... I know this wasn't much of a Great post, but I need to go.  My "girl" thang started today, and I just have so many pains going on in my tummy.  So, I'm gonna go lay on it...  Pressure usually helps it.

Take Care Guys

Melisa